Happy, so happy, contentment that none can take away.
I know now it is the gift of my guru. There is nothing to do except love her and acknowledge her grace.
I can stop my mind analyzing. I can stop it slipping into the past or the future.
I finally realized the yantra I see when I close my eyes is something to take the help of when I open them. Sri Kundalini, the voice of my Lord, beckons to me. Be free... be free....
I have never gazed at a yantra before, but this one quiets my mind and centers me in the inner stillness, what is real. Then I look about and rejoin maya already in progress. I look at it at various times throughout the day, slipping back into meditation.
I want to be established in this, what is real.
Things that I have spent hours and years on, creating new karmas of concern, worry, perfectionism... I focus this clear consciousness on them and add the willingness to let them go, gently nudging them, slipping them off of me, off of my mind.
Nudge.... slip. I watch them dissolve. They seldom return. They slip away as I stay in the now.
If this takes more than a nudge, I stop. To push on it is a do, it creates story, my mind takes it up, and new karmas begin. No more.
My guru's shakti. My guru's shakti. It permeates my subtle body as profound bliss and love. Sometimes I gasp when so much playful bliss pushes up through me... bliss, bliss, bliss.
My physical body sways slightly, completely relaxed. I breathe a little deeper. Every breath.
My guru's shakti. It is an infinite gift. She gives to me. She is giving me everything, all that there is to give. I don't know why.
I am giving her my everything. She is dissolving all that I no longer think of as me. I think enough has been dissolved that the bottom has dropped out. Lucky me!
It is the best experience, beyond any description or measure.
I no longer question, as I have obsessively questioned everything, all of my life.
I no longer question. It is real.
I know now it is the gift of my guru. There is nothing to do except love her and acknowledge her grace.
I can stop my mind analyzing. I can stop it slipping into the past or the future.
I finally realized the yantra I see when I close my eyes is something to take the help of when I open them. Sri Kundalini, the voice of my Lord, beckons to me. Be free... be free....
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| Sri Yantra |
I have never gazed at a yantra before, but this one quiets my mind and centers me in the inner stillness, what is real. Then I look about and rejoin maya already in progress. I look at it at various times throughout the day, slipping back into meditation.
I want to be established in this, what is real.
Things that I have spent hours and years on, creating new karmas of concern, worry, perfectionism... I focus this clear consciousness on them and add the willingness to let them go, gently nudging them, slipping them off of me, off of my mind.
Nudge.... slip. I watch them dissolve. They seldom return. They slip away as I stay in the now.
If this takes more than a nudge, I stop. To push on it is a do, it creates story, my mind takes it up, and new karmas begin. No more.
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| Your words are pure nectar... |
My physical body sways slightly, completely relaxed. I breathe a little deeper. Every breath.
My guru's shakti. It is an infinite gift. She gives to me. She is giving me everything, all that there is to give. I don't know why.
I am giving her my everything. She is dissolving all that I no longer think of as me. I think enough has been dissolved that the bottom has dropped out. Lucky me!
It is the best experience, beyond any description or measure.
I no longer question, as I have obsessively questioned everything, all of my life.
I no longer question. It is real.
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| Brother Eknath, I touch your feet |
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