No longer crawling

Somewhere, I am here

My body is so relaxed.

No longer crawling to a distant shore.

Gurupurnima

I feel SO MUCH gratitude. Thank you Shree Guru for bringing me forever to my place at your feet. I am blessed beyond any measure.

My guru's gifts for Gurupurnima are waxing like the moon.

Seek

Do you hear the silence? I do.

Do you see intelligence dancing around you? I do. Shiva is always here, hiding in plain sight as everything.

Once this point of view was a flash, no more, questioned.

Each time, I saw it a little longer. A flash, no more, still questioned.

I began to realize I could have this experience all of the time. My helpful ego thought this achievement meant all sorts of things about me.

I learned to let grace come in without handing it to my ego. This took a lot of discipline. This discipline is why I can post these secret things here, without thinking any of this is my attainment. Attainment is the consolation prize. I seek the true prize. I am vigilant, and keep these most precious things apart from my ego.

I am so lucky. I was so tired. I was tired of serving the illusion that I could obtain all that I craved and juggled and desperately sought each day without turning inward.

Grace was waiting, endless grace, waiting for me.

I find the source of endless refreshment, comfort and joy flowing up through me whenever I turn to my source. I receive all that I have ever wanted and more, the real desires of my heart, not worldly reflections. This is why the guru is called the Wish Fulfilling Tree.

I could not do any of this without grace. Grace is REQUIRED.

Grace comes from my guru. It flows to me when I draw it with auspicious acts of loving self-discipline, when I grow spiritually. It is always a gift. I cannot earn it. It is precious beyond all purchase or repayment.

I can only learn how to accept grace.   

Thank you... 

If God's grace is your heart's desire, then you are a seeker. Your grace might come from nature, Gaia, the universe, The Ancestors, Jesus, the Goddess, Krishna, Buddha, Allah, The Beloved, or simply a mystery that appears in your consciousness. Seek and keep most precious this grace and it will seek you. It will show you the way.

Because of grace, I hear the silence. I stop, I listen, and it is always there. What is real... immediate... forever.

I have turned my senses inward. This is my discipline.

Because of grace, I see that One who is beyond time and space, who creates time and space from Self. One who has always existed; One without second. I know my consciousness is this One.

There is a sacred, sacred place in the heart where this One is not veiled. Will you live and die this time without finding this place?

A part of me is established there. This is my heart's desire, always above everything else. Every day I choose this, a little more of me is established in God. It's a little easier. It lasts longer. My guru teaches me that I can become enlightened, can be established in God in this lifetime. This truth thrills me; I am returning home. It is the journey of journeys.

Do you want the source of endless refreshment, comfort and joy above all? If this is what you desire, seeker..... wait no longer. SEEK... God will answer the longings of your heart.

Seek.

Don't laugh. Star Wars touched the place of the heart that whispers in every heart, "come home."

Every blade of grass

Every blade of grass has its angel that bends over it and whispers “Grow, Grow.” 

 ~ The Talmud

Inner stillness

Stillness... and delight

“When you lose touch with inner stillness, you lose touch with yourself. When you lose touch with yourself, you lose yourself in the world.” 

~ Eckhart Tolle

I am here God...
here am I...

"Perhaps... crying is just a way for my mind to become still again(?) For you see, stillness speaks only when the mind is really ready to listen."

~ Tara Lemieux, Elephant Journal

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Dharana from my Guru

I checked the SY Path Website yesterday, and there is a teaching from my Guru. A lovely picture of the cold, blue, dusky bank above frozen Lake Nityananda with the beautiful sky of a golden dawn breaking above it.

The words Unite and Love are placed on the image, with Love in the center, (a place of unity).

(My Guru loves to teach through the divine as nature).

To me, the lake is below, the new day is above. UNITE the inner with the outer... via LOVE.

UNITE the impure consciousness of maya (the malas) with the pure consciousness of the One... through LOVE.

UNITE my old life of conditions of the mind (fear) with my new sadhana of freedom... as LOVE.

As I apply consciousness to each limitation
the Guru is the root of all action

watching its power dissolving in consciousness, 

I move through the fear to consciousness as a new freedom... 

~ GURU'S GRACE ~

The first mockingbird

I love the jaunty Mockingbird's karaoke of Spring!

Oh, how could I forget? To record my joy....?

The day before yesterday, I heard.....

...THE FIRST MOCKINGBIRD of Spring!

Darshan as the divine nectar of "bursting forth...," a new Spring beginning (me too)