I feel as though I was a big rubber band, always stretched and taut, pulling. All my life. All.
And now it has all been loosened.
I'm dreamy and soft, and can't think about anything complicated. I lose almost every board I play in my favorite game. I really can't talk very well. More like sputtering. Brain is moving slow. Like jet lag for yoginis.
I am indulging the feeling of letting go. It feels wonderful to lay in bed for hours (watching Justified season 2, ya!).
I know I cannot live the way I did before this gift from my guru. I have thrown off the old. My extreme habits made from "fixing a broken life" are falling away from me.
I have complete trust that my guru will show me a new way to live after I have rested up and let the old ways go.