Saturday, July 22, 2017

The essence of my sadhana is one-pointedness

Swami Lakshmanjoo commentary: Bhagavad Gita Chapter 6, verses 17-18

INTRODUCTION: "This is my new commentary on this Bhagavad Gītā." Swami Lakshmanjoo exclaims, as he tells us what we should do when eating and while experiencing śabda (sound), sparśa (touch), rupa (form) . . . all of the sensual pleasures.
In sensual pleasures, what should you do?


video of Swami Lakshmanjoo
DVD 6.2 (23:22)



Source: Bhagavad Gita, in the Light of Kashmir Shaivism, revealed by Swami Lakshmanjoo
All Content subject to copyright © John Hughes
Permission for reprint pending


युक्ताहारविहारस्य युक्तचेष्टस्य कर्मसु ।
युक्तस्वप्नावबोधस्य योगो भवति दुःखहा ॥१८॥
yuktāhāravihārasya yuktaceṣṭasya karmasu /
yuktasvapnāvabodhasya yogo bhavati duhkhahā //18//

Although this verse of the Bhagavad Gītā by Vyāsa is complete,186 but Abhinavagupta has not commentated upon it as I would commentate upon this śloka. I will tell you his commentary, his first commentary, [which he gave] in his first life.

Āhāra means āhriyamāṇeṣu viṣayeṣu [comm.], when you will go here and there–this is āhāra. Yuktāhāra does not [only] mean eating. Yuktāhāra means śabda (sound),sparśa (touch), rupa (form) . . . all of the sensual pleasures.

In sensual pleasures, what should you do?

Keep it on one side, vihāra. Vihāra means vihāraḥ upa-bhogāya pravṛttiḥ; vihāra means to enjoy sensual objects. This was Abhinavagupta’s first commentary.

Tasyāśca yuktatvaṁ. Yukta means, na ātyantā saktiḥ na ātyanta parivarjanam, you should not be a slave to those enjoyments. Neither should you become a slave nor should you renounce them. Renunciation is also not good and to be a slave to those enjoyments, that is also not good. That is yukta, yuktatva.

Evaṁ sarvatra, in this way you should commentate upon these ślokas of Vyāsa. This is Abhinavagupta’s first commentary. But I don't appreciate this kind of [explanation]. 

Yuktāhāra. Yuktāhāra means take food! Go on taking food, as much food as you can take, go on taking it but keep awareness in it. While taking food, offer it to your own God–that is yuktāhāra. Yuktāhāra means when you eat food, go on eating it with awareness, go on focusing on its taste. Which taste? The taste of whatever you eat . . . and there will be one-pointedness. Maintain one-pointedness while eating. Maintain one-pointedness–it is my commentary, my amendment–maintain one-pointedness in sleeping. You can sleep but maintain one-pointedness in sleeping, be aware while sleeping. If you sleep, be aware! Don’t be just like a sluggish bear sleeping. Put the trick of yoga into it.

This is my new commentary on this Bhagavad Gītā.

Yuktāhāra vihārasya yuktaceṣṭasya karmasu. When you have to do activities of the daily routine of your life, do all of the daily routine of life, but don’t lose your internal yoga. At the same time, you [should] go on practicing inside.

DENISE:
You mean watching your breath.

SWAMIJI:
Watching your breath and don’t be taken by these activities of life, the daily routine of life.


In sensual pleasures, what should you do? (in Kashmir Shaivism) ~Swami Lakshmanjoo


Yukta svapnā, and when you dream, go into dreams with awareness. When you dream, you will enter into samādhi at the time of dreaming state; you won’t go into the dreaming state. At that time, you will go into samādhi while dreaming.
Yukta svapna āvabodhasya, and when you are awake, be awake with yoga. Yogo bhavati duḥkha, then yoga is very easy; everywhere yoga is available to you. This is my commentary, new commentary. And this is Abhinavagupta’s new commentary. You should know that. So I had to [make an] amendment on this commentary.

yogo’sti naivātyaśato na caikāntamanaśnataḥ /
na cātisvapnaśīlasya nātijāgarato’rjuna
//17// [repeated]

Yukta means yujaryoge. According to Pāṇini’s grammar, yukta means “with yoga”. Attach yoga to all of your activities of the daily routine of life and yoga will be very easily achieved. Yoga cannot be achieved [by remaining] in one corner. If you lock your door from the outside and sit, you will just be wasting your time inside. You will be . . . “idles workshop is demons . . .” what?

DENISE: Idle mind is devil’s workshop?

JONATHAN: Devil’s playground. Idle workshop is devil’s playground.

SWAMIJI: Yes. Don't do like that. Come out in the field and see yoga!


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186 “Then who is the real yogī then? Yuktāhāravihārasya, you should take food in less quantity. You should do your worldly activity, [but] very little activity. Don’t become victim of your business. Yuktaceṣṭasya karmasu, don’t think too much. Think very little. Not thinking at all, anything, that is not [advisable either]–yoga won’t take place. Think a little. Think of something, but not too much. Yuktasvapnāvabodhasya, and go to dreaming state also, but not always. Yogo bhavati duhkha, for that person, yogabecomes successful and very easy to be obtained. Those actions should be done in moderate way. Don’t see pictures day and night, always. See pictures after a fortnight. That is good, that will lead you to yoga. But [if you are] not seeing pictures at all, [then] those pictures will leak in your mind then, and you will be filled with pictures in your mind. So do something, but very little, in moderation. Don’t be too much attached to it [and] don’t be detached to it at the same time. Detachment [and] attachment should be done moderately, in a moderate way.” Ibid.

Source:
Bhagavad Gita, in the Light of Kashmir Shaivism, revealed by Swami Lakshmanjoo
All Content subject to copyright © John Hughes
Permission for reprint pending




Saturday, June 24, 2017

I don't believe in doing

Krishna Radha
I am not what I do. I observe the parts of the play that I think of as me.

Yoga, meditation and other "do's" hamper me, chain me.

Do whatever comes with this form. To liberate myself from bondage is my dharma. To choose freedom in this way is supreme bliss.

To live this way is to "do" without creating karma.

I don't believe in doing.





Wednesday, May 31, 2017

In the beginning you run



Question: Guruji, whenever I see You, I start running after You. Is this devotion or lack of self respect?

Guruji: In the beginning you run, it is ok. But then you should learn to stop and look within. Dive deep within yourself. Then I will run after you and the whole world will run after you.

The Art of Living Blog: A teaching from Sri Sri Ravi Shankar


Portrait by Nitin Rai




Monday, May 15, 2017

From before


When you look around with eyes closed
what do you see?

When you feel more is near, somehow,
someone...

Presence.  Flow.

No words. No names. From before.

Nothing that can be more new to me,

But together, we are so very old.

Someday it will happen to me

When will I find my Beloved? When will my Beloved find me?





Friday, May 12, 2017

Completely alone

There is no "do." Except to breathe.

When all is pulled away, everything, a previously unknown "place."

Just be, just feel. Don't push, or pull.

Don't reach out to others, that always throws me way off. Be smart about it. Don't throw myself onto that fire, the one that burns me without be burnt. Endless pain.

Why do I go there? Stop.

Being completely alone is better.






Wednesday, May 3, 2017

Hold the mind

Don't think about it. Feel it.

Sometimes I think my sadhana is worthless, my Guru is contemptuous.

Sometimes a beautiful play of loving bliss is lifting through my being; there when I reach for it.

(Sometimes I feel my Guru right behind me, her hand on my shoulder. I have that prickly feeling you have when an unseen someone is in the room).

Hold the mind still. Who cares what this means to my mind. For God's sake, don't let the mind get its hands on it!

I have practiced for years. Hold the mind still when self-pity arises, negative thoughts, fear and making stories. Stop these thoughts on a dime. Holding my mind when good feelings arise is the new challenge.

Hold still. Hold, my mind. Still. Just feel it.

Life doesn't need any help.





Monday, April 17, 2017

Bondage for me

Do not think about enlightenment – look at your limitations and how to go beyond them. That’s the way to progress.  ~ Sadhguru

My path is the down low. My sadhana is the "how" of how I work with my limitations. How I stay awake. How I stay open to Guru's grace. How my limitations dissolve in Her love.

The rest is bondage for me.

Friday, April 7, 2017

So profound



I did THAT.

I did THIS.

Back and forth. Struggle creates its own fire.

Now. Purified. I am in the center, no movement, just a slightly liquid motion in an ever refreshed current of bliss.

So profound. Your grace.







I sigh

A Woman's Tarot by Billie Pots


It's like slipping away from the shore, never having known I was borne upon liquid, watching a smaller world that does not follow, a steady row of tall grass and rocky weeds moving away from me at a measured rate.

My mind is winding down. I stop it often, when it starts. Bliss finds me, scours me with a liquid flow, again and again I sigh.

My breath sustains me. A continuous process of life. The most essential of all that is most sacred.







Thursday, April 6, 2017






I am floating.

Your shakti washes over me.

Sunday, April 2, 2017

Same shakti

"God endowed every one of us with the same shakti which he himself is. God created us and also lives in us."
~ Baba Muktananda


Saturday, April 1, 2017

A sweetness flows

When I am the right distance from it all. Consciousness of consciousness, a sweet exchange, quiet inside.

There is a me, because I am made of You. A there. And a here. You.





I finally understand. I finally see.

It is a play, it is pretense of multiplicity. But it is real. Because it is made out of You. This is all You. Inside. All around. I am watching You play. 

When I am the right distance from it all. Consciousness of consciousness. A sweetness flows through it.






Thursday, March 30, 2017

Earn grace




"To earn the grace of the divine is the highest victory."  ~Sadhguru







No ladder for me



I have never thought this before. I have never heard another saying it.

No ladder of enlightenment. Not for me.

My sadhana is a song. My love, my Beloved.

Grace is a night wind, softly keening, well up in the treetops. The tug in me that has always been there.

I dance inside. This world of bliss.

I care only about the places between rocks, an endless song of spheres, the silent years of space.

My sadhana is a song. My love, my Beloved. I am curled against You.

I receive You. I am of You. I play as You.

So beautiful.



Monday, March 27, 2017

Effortless


Every few minutes... every few hours...

My mind spins down. So whisper soft as it comes to a stop.

And I become soft, my eyes gently close as I float in effortless meditation.







Sunday, March 26, 2017

Get out of the way


 
Get out of the way. Get out of the way.

Each moment of transcendence and bliss, my true nature. Only my mind thinks that something is missing.

My mind thinks I am attaining something, and tries to control it, tries to learn how to keep it. My mind keeps leaping in to grasp and move and amplify.

Get out of the way. Get out of the way of grace, unfettered grace.





Thursday, March 16, 2017

Sadhguru: Devotion

"This is something I want everyone to understand: Your devotion is not doing anything to your deity – it is transforming you. If you do not know how to use your devotion to transform you, it becomes deceptive. If you look at things as high and low, superior and inferior, good and bad, you have not tasted the Divine. Don’t look up to anything – don’t look down on anything. If you pay absolute attention to everything, you will see something tremendous in everything. If I see an ant, that ant is my Ishta Devata at that moment..."
"Devotion is a tool to dissolve yourself into what you are doing. This is a way to access intelligence and insight well beyond your normal intellect. You will see things that others would never be able to see. Devotion is not only about going to the temple, breaking coconuts, or doing pooja. Devotion means involvement with no limits, prejudice, and conditions. Who you are dissolves in your activity, as if you are not there. That is when you are a true leader. That is when you are a true devotee."

isha.sadhguru.org/blog/sadhguru/spot/my-ishta-devata/






Monday, February 20, 2017

Your gaze

I see You. I see You behind everything.

Only those who seek the dark and crave all that is wild can see You. Only the chaste bride of all that is without and beyond can feel Your gaze.

I see You. I know You.

Your hair a plasma of dark flames, your garland of ashy skulls, Your only attire a living kindred of deadly snakes.

Your eyes were hidden. But now they are wild upon me.

My Lord. My Lord. Kala Bhairava. Namo namo.



Om Kala Bhairavaya Namo



Sunday, February 19, 2017

Kala Bhairava

Shree Kala Bhairava
Significance of Kala Bhairava Worship
Adapted from Sringeri.net

Kala Bhairava represents the march of time. As the fierce aspect of Lord Shiva, Kala Bhairava is the destroyer of all through destroying Time (Maha Kala). He oversees the march of the mysterious time itself, through which he not only controls human life, but also countries and planets as well, ensuring the evanescence (impermanence) of all phenomena.

Hymns on Kala Bhairava highlight a truth; “Time is the most precious. Time lost is lost for ever. Wise people should use every moment of time effectively. Lord Kala Bhairava helps everyone to make one’s time useful.”

He is not only the protector of the sacred place but also the deity of liberation.

The worship of Shiva in the aspect of Kala Bhairava helps one realize the transitory nature of worldly existence and make the most of the rare human birth to realize Brahman, the supreme reality.

Kala Bhairavashtakam has been composed by Adi Shankara, and Jagadguru  Sri Shivabhinava Narasimha Bharati Swamigal the 33rd Acharya of Sringeri Math.

Devotees offer vadesara, abhisheka and even silver anklets to Kala Bhairava on ashtami tithi.


Kala Bhairava teaches you the highest truth that your life is going to depend on how you relate to time. If you insult time by idling it away, you will be cursed by Kala Bhairava. On the other hand if you worship time, even a millisecond will matter and bring you prosperity, victory and peace. As a human being you think that nothing is going to happen in one millisecond, but then the divine knows methods to change your life in a millisecond.

If you are endlessly waiting for things to happen and it never happens, this means you have offended time either in this life or previous life All that you need is a worshipful attitude towards time.  You can fix the problem by worshiping Kala Bhairava.




Spiritual topography







Wednesday, February 8, 2017

Kala Bhairava ~ the fierce aspect of Shiva

Significance of Kala Bhairava Worship
Adapted from Sringeri.net

Kala Bhairava represents the march of time. As the fierce aspect of Lord Shiva, Kala Bhairava is the destroyer of all through destroying Time (Maha Kala). He oversees the march of the mysterious time itself, through which he not only controls human life, but also countries and planets as well, ensuring the evanescence (impermanence) of all phenomena.

Hymns on Kala Bhairava highlights a truth; “Time is the most precious. Time lost is lost for ever. Wise people should use every moment of time effectively. Lord Kala Bhairava helps everyone to make one’s time useful.”

He is not only the protector of the sacred place but also the deity of liberation.

The worship of Shiva in the aspect of Kala Bhairava helps one realize the transitory nature of worldly existence and make the most of the rare human birth to realize Brahman, the supreme reality.

 
Kala Bhairavashtakam has been composed by Adi Shankara, and Jagadguru  Sri Shivabhinava Narasimha Bharati Swamigal the 33rd Acharya of Sringeri Math.

Devotees offer vadesara, abhisheka and even silver anklets to Kala Bhairava on ashtami tithi.


Kala Bhairava teaches you the highest truth that your life is going to depend on how you relate to time. If you insult time by idling it away, you will be cursed by Kala Bhairava. On the other hand if you worship time, even a millisecond will matter and bring you prosperity, victory and peace. As a human being you think that nothing is going to happen in one millisecond, but then the divine knows methods to change your life in a millisecond.

If you are endlessly waiting for things to happen and it never happens, this means you have offended time either in this life or previous life All that you need is a worshipful attitude towards time.  You can fix the problem by worshiping Kala Bhairava.


Tuesday, February 7, 2017

Who I am

Om Shree Kala Bhairavaya Namo

At last, I understand.

Om Shree Kala Bhairavaya Namo.

The reason I like the night, the dark, the quiet, the eerie, the wistful.

Om Namo Namo.

My sadhana is solitary. Who I am is solitary.

Om. 

My Lord is here, the One who is outside of the circle of life, fierce, dark, the Lord of outermost cold and the innermost flame.

Others run. I open my arms to You, elemental and inexorable, guardian of the temple of my heart—I know you at last. I recognize my Lord, my true Self, my Ishta Devata.

Om Shree Kala Bhairavaya.

PranamNamo.

You are the hidden places,
wild and unknown by any but your own
Om. Salutations to You, Kalabhairava, Shiva. I bow to You.

Om namo namo.

I bow again and again.

Om.

At your feet forever.









Om Shree Kala Bhairava Namo

Monday, January 23, 2017

Veil of ash

A Coign of Vantage by Alma-Tadema
I've been hiding from You. I hide from everyone.

I'm afraid of You. You can see right through to where I am hiding. Your gaze is stern, You are stern. You mirror my crisis of worth. My ego filled with full panic, with nowhere to hide.

You burned me for years. You were just about to look at me. Panic. Over and over, you turned your body to face mine, but never your head. Never your gaze. Each time, I was singed, a curl of smoke rising from my veil of ash.

Just enough fire to weaken my fortress. How shall I be released?

Every moment, a crisis of worth. I offer this crisis of worth.

I offer this, my weary ego, my tiny prison of historic battlements, a coign of vantage, my impassable moat disguised as a lazy pool of leisure. I stand at this muddy shore and breathe the wider world, imagine myself roaming there, and try... Again and again. No. No shakti there for me. I cannot. At last I am defeated.

You are my world.

Then, at age twelve, I was encapsulated in the moment when all was lost. The world. My parents. My worth. Only hope survived. I have tended to it all these years, my sanity.




Svaha. I offer the belief that any of this happened to me.

Svaha. I offer ego, I need it no longer. I am here, at your feet.

Svaha. I offer all that I am, to You.

I welcome your gaze, I pray for it. Please gaze into my eyes, into my soul.

Break open the prison.

Svaha.






Monday, January 16, 2017

The scenery moves


I am not moving. My body and the scenery moves.

Thursday, January 12, 2017

Fragrance of the Heart


Breathe in deeply the fragrance of the Heart
Revel in the light of the Supreme Self
Breathe out gently the benevolent power of the Heart


~ Gurumayi

Tuesday, January 10, 2017

The quality of Nandi

Nandi Temple in Khajuraho

From an interview with Sadhguru Jaggi Vasudev


Nandi is a symbolism of eternal waiting, because waiting is considered the greatest virtue in Indian culture. One who knows how to simply sit and wait is naturally meditative. Nandi is not expecting Shiva to come out tomorrow.* He is not anticipating or expecting anything. He is just waiting. He will wait forever. That quality is the essence of receptivity. Before you go into a temple, you must have the quality of Nandi – to simply sit. 


You are not trying to go to heaven, you are not trying to get this or that – you simply sit.


Some Nandis have one leg ready as they wait


People have always misunderstood meditation as some kind of activity. No – it is a quality. That is the fundamental difference. Prayer means you are trying to talk to God. Meditation means you are willing to listen to God. You are willing to just listen to existence, to the ultimate nature of creation. You have nothing to say, you simply listen. That is the quality of Nandi – he just sits, alert.
This is very important – he is alert, not sleepy. He is not sitting in a passive way. He is sitting, very active, full of alertness, full of life, but just sitting – that is meditation.


Brihadiswar Temple Tamil Nadu 

Meditation essentially means the individual person is not doing his own thing. He is just there. Once you are simply there, you become aware of the larger dimension of the existence that is always in action. You become aware that you are a part of it.
Even now you are a part of it but becoming aware that “I’m a part of it” is meditativeness. Nandi is the symbolism of that. He just sits and reminds everyone, “You must sit like me.



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*NOTE from Jana: Nandi is Shiva's "vehicle," and is traditionally found at Shiva temples. His qualities are related to the qualities of Shiva, who is often portrayed as the master yogi sitting in meditation. Nandi is also considered a deity in his own right.

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Sweet Surprise 2017


Forever and ever...


...closer than close.