When everything goes to hell. When I start choosing anything besides the center place.
Don't waste time with trying to figure out what it means or what went wrong or what to do to get the guru mojo back.
Throw yourself on the fire.
It will all burn faster.
You are burning, girl. Mantra is the protection from the discomfort of the fire. It's all good.
OM Bhurbhuvah svah Surya Iha gacca
Iha sah Suryaya Namah ||
(Rg. Veda 1-35-2, Yajurveda 33-34)