Monday, May 15, 2017

From before


When you look around with eyes closed
what do you see?

When you feel more is near, somehow,
someone...

Presence.  Flow.

No words. No names. From before.

Nothing that can be more new to me,

But together, we are so very old.

Someday it will happen to me

When will I find my Beloved? When will my Beloved find me?





Friday, May 12, 2017

Completely alone

There is no "do." Except to breathe.

When all is pulled away, everything, a previously unknown "place."

Just be, just feel. Don't push, or pull.

Don't reach out to others, that always throws me way off. Be smart about it. Don't throw myself onto that fire, the one that burns me without be burnt. Endless pain.

Why do I go there? Stop.

Being completely alone is better.






Wednesday, May 3, 2017

Hold the mind

Don't think about it. Feel it.

Sometimes I think my sadhana is worthless, my Guru is contemptuous.

Sometimes a beautiful play of loving bliss is lifting through my being; there when I reach for it.

(Sometimes I feel my Guru right behind me, her hand on my shoulder. I have that prickly feeling you have when an unseen someone is in the room).

Hold the mind still. Who cares what this means to my mind. For God's sake, don't let the mind get its hands on it!

I have practiced for years. Hold the mind still when self-pity arises, negative thoughts, fear and making stories. Stop these thoughts on a dime. Holding my mind when good feelings arise is the new challenge.

Hold still. Hold, my mind. Still. Just feel it.

Life doesn't need any help.





Monday, April 17, 2017

Bondage for me

Do not think about enlightenment – look at your limitations and how to go beyond them. That’s the way to progress.  ~ Sadhguru

My path is the down low. My sadhana is the "how" of how I work with my limitations. How I stay awake. How I stay open to Guru's grace. How my limitations dissolve in Her love.

The rest is bondage for me.

Friday, April 7, 2017

So profound



I did THAT.

I did THIS.

Back and forth. Struggle creates its own fire.

Now. Purified. I am in the center, no movement, just a slightly liquid motion in an ever refreshed current of bliss.

So profound. Your grace.







I sigh

A Woman's Tarot by Billie Pots


It's like slipping away from the shore, never having known I was borne upon liquid, watching a smaller world that does not follow, a steady row of tall grass and rocky weeds moving away from me at a measured rate.

My mind is winding down. I stop it often, when it starts. Bliss finds me, scours me with a liquid flow, again and again I sigh.

My breath sustains me. A continuous process of life. The most essential of all that is most sacred.







Thursday, April 6, 2017






I am floating.

Your shakti washes over me.

Sunday, April 2, 2017

Same shakti

"God endowed every one of us with the same shakti which he himself is. God created us and also lives in us."
~ Baba Muktananda


Saturday, April 1, 2017

A sweetness flows

When I am the right distance from it all. Consciousness of consciousness, a sweet exchange, quiet inside.

There is a me, because I am made of You. A there. And a here. You.





I finally understand. I finally see.

It is a play, it is pretense of multiplicity. But it is real. Because it is made out of You. This is all You. Inside. All around. I am watching You play. 

When I am the right distance from it all. Consciousness of consciousness. A sweetness flows through it.






Thursday, March 30, 2017

Earn grace




"To earn the grace of the divine is the highest victory."  ~Sadhguru







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Sweet Surprise 2017


Forever and ever...


...closer than close.