(He touches me inside. Shiva as _________).
Surely I should be seeking discipline, meditating for hours, doing yoga, eating only pure foods.
No, I sit at my computer until I am frozen in a "L" shape, my eyes burn, my mouse hand tingles.
Crazy, is what most would think, would say.
If there was an outside...
... then inside is where the action is. I am already God, and everything I think and do is His beautiful intelligence swirling and bubbling through this beautiful universe, its throb and its motion is His... Your breath...
Take me into You, I have longed for you for so long. I played side by side with You as a child, cried for You as an adolescent, grew a little, hallucinated at times, and drove drunk with a wild and wide space around me, the cloud of love where I felt you in waves, soaked in you... heavy and ecstatic, rising like a wave that only reaches, but never breaks.
I notice where I am. That is my now.